Kill The Sun

It's good to have a window on the world

And to live deep in the heart of the beast in the sun

Night after night

I do the same damn thing

Do the weirdness dance for those who can't

It's getting to the point

That I can't take it anymore

Anymore

Yeah anymore

I remember waking up at 3 PM

In a thrashed bedroom

Sharp with needles and knives

I reach for the crutches that keep in motion

Vague memories that keep me alive

Like when she used to call me baby (baby)

All alone in our room

In the middle of the night

Kill the sun

Yes, kill the sun

Kill the sun

Come on come on stop the light

Yes, I got sunshine

It's a suicide song in the back of my mind

Pure white evil wrapped around my eyes

Yeah, I've got all the cities of light to live in

But I don't even want no part

Hard is the fall

And cold is the bite

Kill the sun

Yeah come on stop the light

Stop the light

Kill the sun

Kill the sun

Yeah kill the sun

Yeah kill the sun

Kill the sun

Yeah, stop the light

Stop the light

Yeah yeah

Kill the sun

Yeah come on kill the night

Anita Sonic Love

I hear the sonic sound of brakes

As you whisper in my ear

I hold your head between my sweaty hands

And shout loud for all to hear

Anita say the word

I smell gasoline and I feel the heat

As we make love standing up

In the alley behind your street

Glow and crumble girl

I want you

But I don't want your world

Anita say the word (3x)

I will walk with you

Almost anywhere

Back to Al's bar

Baby hand in hand

All them local boys will know

That I'm your new man

Oh, come on

Hey, see Anita

Yeah, she's my scary girl

All black, blue eyes, and blue, blackened hair

I can taste the heaven waiting there

Shake and treble

Broken grace

I admit it

I'm in love

But out of place

Anita say the word

Anita say the word

The word

The word

I will sleep with you

In that misfit way

With the TV noise so loud it soothes my fears

And the flickering light that will bathe your face

Oh

Oh

Anita

Anita

Anita

Go

I wake from the drugs and the fear in the night

Outside the world reverberates

Blue shadows in our loft downtown L.A.

Outside the world reverberates

I need the strength I see in her

I need the love I feel inside

Talk about leaving behind the hell we're in

We laugh about making it out alive

Hey, see Anita

Yeah, she's my pretty girl

Blind eye to the world outside

No more so than the rest of the world

No more so than the rest of the world

No more so than any other girl

It makes no sense to me

No more so than the rest of the world

It makes no sense to me

Yeah, Anita, say the word

Yeah, come on Anita, say the word

Eleanor Young

Eleanor Young

Eleanor child

Standing on a lonely hill top

In the Appalachian wild

Eleanor sing

Eleanor scream

Shout loud for your own green world

Because doors don’t open for the country girl

Oh, they lied to you

They sung to you songs you weren’t meant to hear

They showed you life your eyes were never meant to see

Yeah, you should have seen right through

But you believed

Eleanor grow

Eleanor cold

Midnight in a dim lit diner

In the driving Detroit snow

Eleanor year

Oh, Eleanor learn

One child with no last name

Your boyfriend runs

Who do you blame?

Oh, he lied to you

He did to you things they taught you were sin

He took from you the best that was within you

He showed you things your eyes should never seen

And the saddest thing of all

Baby, you believed

Yeah, yeah the saddest thing of all

Was you believed

Yeah mama you believed

Eleanor age

Eleanor cage

See California on New Year’s Day

The sun shines warm on the Rose Parade

Eleanor ache

Oh, Eleanor break

Come out west with your last born child

I grew up scared and weird and wild

Oh you lied to me

You hid from me knowledge I should have known

You kept from me the life that was my own

You shielded me from things I should have seen

Yes but for a very short while, mama

I believed

I believed

I believed

Whoa, I believed

I believed

Mama, I believed

I believed

Whoa, mama I believed

Carolea

She came to the coast from the ‘Show Me State’

With her daddy’s blue eyes

And her mama’s blind hate

Yeah, she didn’t know much

But she knew the rules

What she needed to learn

She would find in L.A.

Not back in that school

She didn’t want to read about it

Yeah, she wanted to see

She’s Carolea

She’s Carolea

She’s Carolea

Yeah yeah she was never quite sure what she wanted to be

Just a little girl alone in a brand new place

With a devious mind and a beautiful face

Ever since she was a baby

She had learned to play

She wanted money in her hand

From the easiest way

All her friends said stop

“Girl, you can’t pay that price”

But the hard way don’t appeal to the beast inside

She doesn’t want to just hear about the better life

Guess she’s just ready to be

Carolea

She’s Carolea

Carolea

She’s Carolea

Alright

Hey

Drum line

She never tells the truth

To the folks back east

The truth about the drugs

And the men she gets paid to please

And they won’t know

What they don’t see

That finally now after all those years

She can let the beast inside run free

She’s Carolea

Carolea

She’s Carolea

Come on

Yeah yeah yeah

Carolea

She’s Carolea (3x)

Yeah Carolea

Hey

Culver Palms (Or Why I Don’t Believe In God)

I heard the truth about you

And it doesn’t really read at all

Like the whipping stick you raised me with

A scared woman in a private hell

Hushed voice like electric bell

Strange talk about Edgar Cayce

And the long, lame walk of the dark 70’s

Strange talk about Edgar Cayce

And the long, lame walk of the dark 70’s

I heard the truth about you

Yeah you

Hey mama they woke me up

I was deep in my idiot sleep

I was just 8 years old

I heard big words with a horrible sound

Mama, they called my school

To tell me my mama had a nervous breakdown

I wish I believed like you do

Yeah you

In the myth of a merciful God

And the myth of a heaven or hell

I hear the voices you hear sometimes

Sometimes it gets so much

I feel like letting go

Sometimes it gets so hard

I feel like letting it all go

Sometimes it gets so goddamned hard

I feel like letting it all go

Letting it all go (5x)

I ran away and went looking for you

Back to Culver City and the old neighborhood

Need to know if you were really gone

Need to know if you were gone for good

I ran through the projects at night

Hide in the dark from my friends in the light

Hide from my brother in law

Hide from the things he’d say

He said you weren’t losing your mind

He said you just needed a rest

He said you’d be coming home soon

He said the doctors there would know what’s best

He said maybe I could go live with them for a while

I heard the truth about you (3x)

I know the truth (4x)

I know the truth about you

Yeah they woke me up

I was just 8 years old

Sometimes it gets so hard

I feel like gets so hard

I feel like letting it go

Sometimes it gets so hard

I feel like letting it all go

Letting it all go

13 Years

I woke up sweating in the sun

Sprawled across my big brother’s grave

Shaking and drunk with sleep

I crawled to my feet

And walked up into the shade

Of a young elm tree

That must have been planted

Since the last time we came

Vicki, my mom and me

To clean the dirt

From the plaque that says his name

Walking to my girlfriend’s car

It came back down on me

Yeah, I guess I fell to my knees

To keep from falling face first into the dream

The vision that had me twisting out under the afternoon sky

I didn’t know it then

But it was thirteen years to the day he died

He held his hand to me

Like brothers we walked

(We walked)

Through the colorless world of my alcohol dream

I talked for hours trying to break through the silence that he held to me

Then he started away

He turned and said, “Keep it up, so you can die like me”

Yeah, so you can die like me

Go!

Come on!

Ever since my brother O.D.’d

I have drifted all over from town to town to town

Every place I go

It’s always the same

I keep doing junk

I keep going down

Yeah, my mama got religion

My sisters gave up

And I just gave up too

I just died inside

I don’t wanna die like George

I don’t wanna die like George

Everyone sees their own image

They says there’s things to see

Everybody’s pointing their finger at me

I woke up driving after another blackout

From another bad drug

I just can’t shake this hell that I have made for myself

And for every other life I touch

I see my sister’s son

Walk the line I walk

And he’s only sixteen

If he don’t lean from my mistakes

He’s gonna to waste away

He’s gonna die like me (7x)

The Marrying Kind

The girl at the bar

Has just one heart

To give away

You can tell by the look in her eyes

And the way she don’t dance

All she wants

And all she sees

Is in the boys that hurt her

And the boys that tease

The marrying kind

Only give it all away just once

Yeah, the marrying kind

Only give it all away just once

She her as she smiles so shallow

With a style not quite her own

She grabs all the games she can hold

In her listless mind

She stands on the edge like an empty glass

Pushed until she falls

In a shatter and a crash

She’s dumb, dull, damaged, and blind

She’s the marrying kind

You try so hard to forgive it all one more time

You try so hard to see what’s in her eyes

And to find what’s in her mind

Yeah

She feels like she’s turned into a Barbie doll

Pictures of her pain on her bedroom wall

Caught between the truth and a sheltered life

She’s caught between the wedding and a suicide knife

Far away from the troubles you find

She comes to grips

She’s the marrying kind

She’s the marrying kind

She’s the marrying kind

Yeah, she’s the marrying kind

Separation

Woman Voice:  Where the hell have you been?  I’ve been leaving you message after message and you don’t call me back, don’t return any of my calls.  What is wrong?  A week ago everything was just fine, but now you act as if I was a plague or something.  What did I do? Could you at least call me back and explain this to me?  Do I need to change?  What do I need to do for you?  Give me a call, now!

I wish I had the strength inside to make you go away

I wish I was immune

But ever since I met you drinking at the circle bar

I go where you will to keep from being ripped in two

I still smile when I think of 1986

You and me in that little room drunk on sex

And we'd fall asleep at every band we'd go to see

Easier to pass out than to deal with you and me alone

Sitting in the dark drunk hearing John Doe sing

About poor little girls and silver wings

Yeah baby, something's got to give

I wish I knew why you're so intent on breaking me

You act like a bitch possessed

Yeah a bitch possessed

I've had it up to here with your crazy ever-changing moods

I just take your worst

While you just take my best

I've had enough

I've had enough

Yeah, I need a break

You're always out screwing around

While I'm hammering on the neighbor's door

Hoping they'll turn the Led Zeppelin down

Something's got to give

Something, some where’s got to give

Yeah baby, something's got to give

Yeah, I think I need a break

Want to break you from the inside out

That smug complacent smile is reason enough

I want to cut the ties that bind my life

I want to break you in your prime

I wish I had in me the power to make you disappear

I wish I had control

I just want to walk away and never have to hear

About you all the things you say that I don't really want to know

Yeah, what you say, what you do, where you go

Everything I loved about you was just for show

Oh, baby, something's got to give

Something, some where’s got to give

Yeah, baby, something's got to give

Yes, I think we need a break

I need to separate

I need to separate from you

I need to separate

I need to separate from you

I need to separate

The Color Pit

One one

Two two

One one two two three three

Yeah, here you come again

I should have known you'd be around

It makes no sense to me

Why we're still alive

You've got weeks to live

And I am on a spiral dive

When you finally die

I won't let you need me there

I know damn well you're not alone

Surrounded, laughing by the death head grins

Of all my friends who've overdosed

Overdosed and died

You know

That's the way we'd go

Back in your color room

The shadows fall and break

We would waste away

Burning out, shooting up

I'm not gonna fall with you this time

I might not get up

I'm not strong enough

You know (3x)

Can't you see it's killing me?

Can't you see it's killing me?

I'm not gonna walk back into the pit

For you

Yeah, not for you or anyone

I don't want the speed

I don't want the heroin

I'm not gonna break (gonna break)

I'm not gonna play your game

When you die alone

In that pit of hell

Don't perpetuate the myth

Don't romanticize

I'm not gonna watch you die again

I don't want to see

You know

You know

You don't want to talk about it

But you know

You sit and laugh at me

You'll die laugh at me

Yeah, you're all fucked up (fucked up)

Can't you see it's killing me? (3x)

I'm not gonna walk back into the pit (4x)

For you

Chucklehead’s Lament

I'm the man

You don't think about

When you think about love

A lame white devil from the bars uptown

With a tattooed smile

Pulled tight around me like a killer's glove

I'm the man

You don't want to know

I'm the one

I'm that ugly one

Walking slow death

Ten feet behind you

Wherever you go

Hey, wherever you go

You'll feel the presence of a crippled man inside my mind

Wherever you go

Hey, wherever you go

You'll jump like danger at every face you see

Wherever you go

Hey, wherever you go

That reminds you

Of a life like me

Wherever you go

Hey, wherever you go

You'll know my name

You'll know what I am

For what I am

Yeah baby, I'm the man

That you will never want

When you want to have sex

Broken body and a misshaped head

Only brings to conscious mind

The unclean smell of bitter sweat

I'm the man

You will never make

When you want to make love

I'm just the man who holds your glance in violence

Wherever you go

Hey, wherever you go

You'll feel the presence of a crippled man inside my mind

Wherever you go

Hey, wherever you go

You'll jump like danger at every face you see

Wherever you go

Hey, wherever you go

That reminds you hard of a life like me

Wherever you go

Hey, wherever you go

You'll know my name

You'll know what I am

Yeah, for what I am

Oh, baby, baby

I'm the man

Yes, I'm the man

I'm the man

That you will never need

When you need to break down

I don't have the soft answers you need

All I have are questions

And my shoulders just aren't strong enough

I'm the one

You don't want to know

I'm the man

Inside every man

I'm waiting patiently and watching

Wherever you go

Hey, wherever you go

Yeah wherever you go

Yeah wherever you go

Yeah, girl wherever you go

Static

Art: “Hey Buz, how much money do you got?”

Buz: “Got enough to buy you a beer”

Art: “Oh really?”

I've got a girl in Saux St. Marie

She takes a bus every weekend

Just to come across the miles to me

She leaves her room

In the shadow of the bridge

To spend two days life blind in my dirty bed

Doesn't ask questions

Never talks down

About the things I do

When she isn't around

Yeah, I just about live in the bars around town

I lose myself in the voice of the crowd

Each and every day I need static

Because I don't want to go home alone

I know a girl just outside of Lacrosse

She meets me in Milwaukee

When the weather gets humid and hot

She leaves her husband and retarded baby girl

Just to walk for a while unencumbered in an easier world

No questions

Never asks why

I walk the floor in the middle of the night and stare

Out the window of an ugly motel

At the neon signs outside

Think about the hell I sell

To make my static

I don't want to go home

I don’t want to go home

I don't want to go home alone

Do what you do

I don’t want to go home alone

Got a girl in Saux St. Marie

She takes a bus every weekend

Just to come across the miles to me

She leaves her room in the shadow of the bridge

Just to spend two days life blind in my dirty bed

Doesn't ask questions

Never talks down

About the life I lead

When she isn't around

Yeah, I just about live in the bars around town

I lose myself in the voice of the crowd

I walk around stupid, blind and proud

Each and every day I need static

I don't want to go home alone (4x)

I don’t want to go home

? (The Gay Bar Song)

Wasn't that you?

Yeah, walking down Pico Boulevard

Yeah, wasn't that you?

Oh, looking cool

Baby, walking hard

Wasn't that you?

Yeah, falling drunk out of that black girl's car

Yeah, wasn't that you?

Baby, wasn't that you?

Baby wasn't that you last night at the gay bar?

Yeah, wasn't that you last night at the gay bar?

Yeah, you had a dazed look on your face

And a big girl on your arm

You've been running around girl

You've been acting strange

Since we hit this west coast town in March of last year

I don't even know what we're doing here

I tried

So hard

To see what burns inside your heart

Your burning heart

Baby, wasn't that you last night at the gay bar?

Well, we came from Texas with one single plan

You was going to model and act

I was going to play in a rock n' roll band

We didn't talk breaks or chance

We was going to make it real with our own hands

All you want to do

Is dance around

And fall like an idiot star

Tell me is it true that heroin illuminates the dark?

Wasn't that you last night at the gay bar?

Baby, wasn't that you last night at the gay bar?

Oh

Whoa

Get your things

And don't you dare come back

Yeah

I'm going to leave this fucked up place

I don't want to see your fucked up face

I don't want to drag this mess around

Hold you back or drag you down

I'm going to close my eyes and turn around

And walk out hard

Yeah, because I can't deal with what I think you are.

Wasn't that you last night at the gay bar?

Baby, wasn't that you last night at the gay bar?

Yeah, I could have sworn I saw you last night at the gay bar?

Baby

Wasn't that you last night at the gay bar?

Kill Jerry Garcia

Right

Where did all you people come from?

Have some wheat germ

Hey, hey want to buy some purple pads

Oh man

Man, I think I’m peaking

(Never going back again)

I'm not gonna choke on your hard sell media dope

Yeah, I'm not going out like that

I don't want to hear about the summer of love

I'm not going back in time

I don't even want to let love rule

I want to break the back of brotherly love

I don't wanna go back in time

I want to kill Jerry Garcia

Joking, No! (4x)

No! (4x)

Go!

I wanna take the past and throw it away

I wanna burn the bridge between then and now

I don't wanna go back in time

I wanna kill Jerry Garcia

I don't want to sow the seeds of love

I wanna punch Marty Balin in his eye

I don't wanna go back in time

I wanna kill Jerry Garcia

Joking, No! (4x)

No!

Man, I don't have a quarter just leave me alone!

I don't want no Dead blood on my hands

I don't wanna shake the flesh and bone

I don't wanna kill the myth

I wanna kill Jerry Garcia

I wanna kick that skeleton in his teeth

I'd wanna kick Pig Pen if he were alive

I don't wanna go back in time

I wanna kill Jerry Garcia

Joking

Kill Jerry

Joking

Kill Jerry

Joking

Kill Jerry

(Never going back)

I Fall To Pieces (Patsy Cline)

Go!

Yeah I fall to pieces

Each time that I see you again

I fall to pieces

I cannot be just your friend

You ask me to act like we’ve never kissed

You want me to pretend

Act like we’ve never met

And I try, and I try

But it ain't happening yet

You walked by and I fall to pieces

I fall to pieces

Each time someone just says your name

I fall to pieces

Time only asks you the friend

You ask me to find someone else to love

Someone to love you true

Just like you used to do

But each time I go in

With someone new

You walk by and I fall to pieces

You walk by and I fall to pieces

Yeah, you walk by and I fall to pieces

Rocky Mountain High

Come on!

Yeah!

He was born in the summer of twenty seventh year

Coming home to a place he’d never been before

And with yesterday behind him

You might say he was born again

You might say he found the key for ever more

In the Colorado rocky mountain high

Yeah, I’ve seen it raining fire in the sky

All around the campfire

Everybody’s high

Rocky Mountain high

In Colorado

Rocky Mountain high

Bass solo!

Now!

Colorado rocky mountain high

Yeah I’ve seen it raining fire in the sky

All around the campfire

Everybody’s high

Rocky Mountain high

Yeah

Colorado Rocky Mountain high

Yeah I’ve seen it raining fire in the sky

All around the campfire

Everybody’s high

Rocky Mountain high

Mr. Greenjeans’ Evil Twin (George Bush Part 2)

25 miles outside

A really big city in every direction

There is girls coming undone

Walking out under an American sign

Gonna try to talk to them

Sit in the darkness and try to ignore

The madness and the subtle death

Holds its arm around you tight and pulls you in.

Hey!

Huh oh

Driving in the country in a two door car

Damaged town with real world scars

I knock hard with the wasted life

Supplied by milk and cheap black knifes

You could go and live with them

In Texas and follow them now go

Turn away

Where anything is everything

All them people have the life

They're not listening

They're never gonna believe

Whoa ho

They are never gonna believe

Whoa ho

They are never gonna believe

They ain't gonna believe

They're never gonna let it go

Big Black Boots

What’s a matter with the kids today?

Can’t live with them

And you can’t kill ‘em

Wonder what it is that they’re trying to say

With their break neck hair, and Nazi love on fire

Seventeen, and the world looks mean

And you open up a page to walk inside a chemical dream

Yeah baby when it was me

I was loving life and living free

Now they act like they got something to do

All those kids are wearing those big black boots

Left the city and lost my fear

Felt good just driving cross country again

Stopped for gas and a fifty cent beer

In a crowded little bar in the middle of a college town

On the stage were three bald girls

Talking loud about the benefits of living in a communist world

They ask me to beat her up for free

Let her on the road and then I saw a car following me

I don’t know what I’m a gonna do

All those girls are wearing those big black boots

Had that dream again

Yeah so weird so vivid and real

About my momma and my sister’s big son

Doing things so strange

They were singing songs

Talking in a language that I didn’t even know

Wearing big black boots with the shiny steel tip

Left the city and lost my wife

So sad for the rest of my life

Heard a rumor

Saw a vision

Turn the corner

It was gone

Gone

Left the city and lost my kids

Strange shadows of things I never did

Pointing fingers, turning circles

I wish I was going round, round, round, round

All alone in a big black world

With a nothing of a lie with a backstreet girl

And I did the things that man, I need to know

Need to know, yeah I need to know

Turning circles, pointing fingers

I wish I was down, down

Everybody’s pulling me

Everybody’s dragging me down

Yeah

Oh, everybody’s wearing them

Everybody’s wearing them now

Yeah

Oh, everybody’s wearing them

Everybody’s wearing them now

Yeah

Yeah yeah yeah

I don’t even know what I’m a gonna do

All those kids are wearing those big black boots

Trust Fund

I know a couple who are in love

Living in the best of times

Truer blue love you will never know

All the pain you will never realize

Sheltered from it in a loving glow

Young and happy and politically correct

Just buy it if you want it now

Yeah just get it if you need it in your life

Now don't you worry if it all runs out

Don't worry because it never will

I know a young girl living in the shadow of

The kind of life that she could never make

She takes it all and gives it back in love

To all the artists in her native state

She is the angel of the disenchanted soul

Just give it if makes you smile

Yeah, just use it if it makes you happy

Now don't you worry if it all runs out

Don't worry because it never will

Please don’t tell me that it’s all okay

I don’t wanna hear you tell me that it’s all okay

I don’t wanna see you giving just a little bit

I don’t wanna hear you talk about your charity

No no no no

I don’t wanna hear about you no

Please don’t tell me

I don’t wanna hear all your lies

Lies (9x)

I know a couple who was in love living in the messed up world

What In The World (Neves/Marauder/Marayama)

Ahh ha ha

Whoa

Yeah

Hoo

Who you are

And what you do

You're standing there

And I'm watching you

From behind

And from to front

Standing there

You fuck and run

What in the world

Did you think you do

(What in the world)

What in the world

Were you trying to prove?

Trying to prove

Ha ha

Hoo

I’m looking at you

You're looking at me

You're standing there

And I like what I see

I take your face

I take you down

Down around

To the ground

What in the world

You think you do

(What in the world)

What in the world

Were you trying to prove?

Trying to prove

Whoa

Ha ha

What in the world

Did you think you do

(What in the world)

What in the world

Were you trying to prove?

Come on man

Come on

I told you to stand there

But you fuck me up man there G

Grab my balls you son of a bunch

God damn man

Ha ha

Motherfucker

What you do

What you do

What you do

I'm looking at you

Fuck you

What in the world

Did you think you do

What in the world

Were you trying to prove?

What in the hell were you trying to do G?